October 27, 2009

The grave
this part of me that won't die
that is stain
a resonance
a rocket
two shadows now.
one split.
i can bury it 

it claws up through the earth
and back into my body
through tiny feet
that are running as quickly as they can
towards anything
any man
any song
any dance
any drug

this part of me that doesn't die.
a zombie heart
feeling without beating
loving with nothing to love
embracing an empty space
a grave look on it's face
i can bury it.

October 24, 2009

October 23, 2009

 it is not a gentle gift 
 that god gives us. 
 but it is a gift.

 need ties us to this planet
 sharp rocks
 staked deep into thick earth.
 arms like balloon strings
 tethering us together.

 i am grounded by your expectations
 to be needed.
 counted on.

 i am not loose in this world
 i am a wild child without you
 your disarming love
 your gravity.
 your resistance
 when need is no longer
 we will be wisps of cottonseed 
 dandelion rain

October 22, 2009

A still life
tonight all my answers are questions
my heart is beating too fast
my thoughts like blurry hummingbirds
i fall apart 
crumbling leaf 
stepping over shit and onto glass
bleeding for who
for what
for when
a brand new amends 
my sorry winter coat
a breeding ground
this is still life.  


October 7, 2009

The maybe's
i'm a work in progress
unfinished business
and touching it
the television groans 
in the close distance
and the rain
has potential
like we have potential
like we slide off the road 
in the icy iciest ice
and correct the wheel
just before
the he said inevitable smash
not everything is inevitable
there are always
other possibilities
like dreams he says
like other realities
the maybe's 

October 5, 2009

the boldest chamber of my heart is a crying room.
i climb the walls
a mirrored ceiling
high walled 
wallpapered and blanket covered 
closing in.
the singing from inside is 
and the hurting is

October 1, 2009