Biter

he hurts me.

and i attack.

scared roving mutt

pound puppy.  wounded.

hungry.

my little baby teeth

monster fangs to any piece 

of him   i can reach.

but i only hurt me.

he is stone 

apparently

stone and bone i think.

i'll always go off somewhere and get stronger.

that is what i do mother fucker.

and then i will love another.

so deeply and so much harder

and smarter.

Pockets

he says he loves me.

he says, "you can feel it in your bones."

but i don't.

i just feel alone.

with origami promises

in my little dog-eared hand.

The girls are on the town

i have changed so much.

but i have not changed at all.

my life is a 360 

every degree 

a drugged destiny

my memory 

is drinking already.

i have corners in corners

in every four walled room

i wander through.

and there's so much that i would have done

if i didn't always need to lie down

the girls are on the town

they are all leg and eyelashes

strength and lip

and i remember how my best friend 

piggy backed me down main street

to catch up. 

people used to stay behind 

or carry me

like i now carry 

that lovely memory.

on my back watching tv.

but i have all this love!

love like a letter

love like an animal

a mother.

love that fights for you

love that kicks you when you're down

then cries out in your pain

some random and worthless truth.

love like a shadow

following you

like a fire

racing the boundaries

burning down houses

i'm stomping the ashes in your boots.

i have all this love

all of this impatiently waiting for you

and while it waits 

it turns 

into a thousand different shapes

searching for the secret door 

that it will finally fit through