poor things

i find them

i kiss them

 Creature 

in 

suburbia

He loved me in parts

i have loved a man unconditionally

in spite of his inappropriate boundaries

bone fences

i climb over

only to suffer 

the consequences.

goodbye, he says

you are difficult! he vents

and i flinch

waiting for my punishment

which i don't take quietly

i fight to the death

dirty ugly desperate

but he won't fight back.

he doesn't want me.

that crooked lip, he said

your beautiful mangled body, he said

that maniacal laugh

he wants me in part. but

my lips spit the questions he refuses to answer

my mangled body stays alive as an ultimate fighter

and the darkness is buried like birds in my laughter

the best and the worst of me all glued together.

Questionable

i have committed crimes

slowly in the dark

the quiet tap of my fingertips

the blurring eyes of my age

my heart skipping beats

my heart skipping beats

i would do anything to change

that moment that curiosity 

stole the best of me

but i ruin everything 

eventually. 

you can't love in compartments.

unless you love things that you don't need 

completely.

you need me here...

i need you everywhere.

we need each other, you said it. 

that's why i called you a liar.

i was hurt and didn't mean it.

but i ask a lot of questions 

that you never give me a chance to accept the answer to.

i am so much stronger when facing the truth.

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divorce is a death.. with a permanent ghost

ghost at the supermarket ghost at the stop light

ghost at a party ghost comes over uncomfortably

your one life becomes two again.  and your own life becomes

about only you again.  and the children.  

divorce is history.  now you are beginning.

something else yet unnamed.  be brave

for god's sake.

we made love now we side hug

we don't know each other anymore

how are you? waiting for an answer

we stand next to our history

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