acceptance

tonight i felt a surge in me..  a loneliness..  a clinging to the plans i once had..  to the destination where i never arrived.   i was fourteen years old when i devised a grand divine plan for my life.  i made my adolescent deals with God and i never looked back.   and over the years this plan folded itself into what i believed was my fate.  but here's the thing..  fate isn't a plan.  it's a surprise...  it's the moment you realize that you are exactly where you're supposed to be and the last place you expected.  and for all the things you wanted so desperately, you got just what you need.  

i kinda wish i got what i wanted.