He loved me in parts

i have loved a man unconditionally

in spite of his inappropriate boundaries

bone fences

i climb over

only to suffer 

the consequences.

goodbye, he says

you are difficult! he vents

and i flinch

waiting for my punishment

which i don't take quietly

i fight to the death

dirty ugly desperate

but he won't fight back.

he doesn't want me.

that crooked lip, he said

your beautiful mangled body, he said

that maniacal laugh

he wants me in part. but

my lips spit the questions he refuses to answer

my mangled body stays alive as an ultimate fighter

and the darkness is buried like birds in my laughter

the best and the worst of me all glued together.