He loved me in partsi have loved a man unconditionally
in spite of his inappropriate boundaries
i climb over
only to suffer
goodbye, he says
you are difficult! he vents
and i flinch
waiting for my punishment
which i don't take quietly
i fight to the death
dirty ugly desperate
but he won't fight back.
he doesn't want me.
that crooked lip, he said
your beautiful mangled body, he said
that maniacal laugh
he wants me in part. but
my lips spit the questions he refuses to answer
my mangled body stays alive as an ultimate fighter
and the darkness is buried like birds in my laughter
the best and the worst of me all glued together.